There is a part in one of my favourite movies, where this guy is trying to get a girl to date him, so he gets this really "cool" guy to help him attract her attention.... well the guy is resisting some of the changes he has to make with the excuse that those things "just aren't him," to which the cool guy replies, " 'YOU' is a very fluid concept right now."
I always thought this was funny before, but today I was driving home from school and realized that I am fluid. In my heart, and with a small hand full of people, I am myself and I know who I am... this isn't the problem... I mean that I act differently depending on who I'm with. (And I don't mean I change my actions or lower my values or anything) Basically I change the way I talk and laugh to suit whoever I'm spending time with....
Allow me to use an example to better illustrate this point:
I have a friend, we'll call "K" who talks SUPER fast and she is high energy and super chatty all the time, and she sorta thrives off of speaking over each other and vying for the leader spot..
I also have a friend, "S" who likes to listen to something, think about it, and reply slowly, and she likes to be listened to the same way. She likes to hear what people have to say, but she likes each person to take their turn.
Recently, both of them failed a practical eval we had at school, and both called to talk to me about it that night. With K, we both spoke over each other and laughed and talked and I convinced her not to worry, and that I would help her practice before her re-eval and that we'd work everything out.
When S called, I mostly listened to her talk, and she really just wanted me to tell her what she needed to do to be successful next time, so I talked slowly, and I listened, and I told her what I knew she wanted to hear.
I think "fluid" is the wrong word for what I am. I am still me, I am just a different version of me depending on who I'm with. I think I am just a pleaser.
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